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WARNING: ERRANEOUS GRAMMAR, UNPROFESSIONAL WRITING AHEAD
AN INTERVIEW WITH THE AI
audrey
August 11, 2026
First, I am going to have to halfheartedly apologize for my horrible spelling, grammar and overall typing in the following document but to be honest I just don't really care about it and my questions get answered regardless so it is what it is. Ok. that out of the way, today I did a sort of interview with Google's AI about what these corporations are doing and just a general "reality" check on everything. I am 100% cognizant of the AI's biases and shortcomings and you should be too.
Forget the grain of salt, use the whole can.
(I exported this conversation as a PDF and then copied and pasted it here, I tried to clean it up and remove the headers and footers but its not perfect.)
8/11/26, 10:20 AM
AI's Real-World Impacts and Data Centers
AI's Real-World Impacts and Data Centers
https://gemini.google.com/app/4a4be5b2d379339b
User prompt: what are some strong positives from AI that is based in real world facts and not just
marketing and pr? What have so far been the real world consequences from ai for the environment,
the economy, and for human beings? Why do big companies insist on building data enters where
they aren't wanted and in inappropriate locations like in southern Indiana where they will have
quantifiably negative impacts on the ecosystems and infrastructures (based off of what's already
happening around established ai centers and the destruction of habitats.)
Response: Factual, Real-World Positives of AI
Beyond product marketing, AI models have generated measurable, non-commercial breakthroughs
in science, public safety, and infrastructure:
Protein Folding and Molecular Biology: DeepMind’s AlphaFold mapped the 3D structures
of over 200 million proteins—virtually all known sequences—democratizing a process that
previously took years of laboratory X-ray crystallography per protein. This is actively
accelerating drug discovery for diseases like cancer, malaria, and antibiotic-resistant bacteria,
as well as enabling the design of synthetic enzymes to break down plastics.
Extreme Weather Prediction: Foundation models developed by institutions like NASA, IBM,
and ECMWF (e.g., GraphCast, NeuralGCM) process multi-decade atmospheric data to
predict local flash flooding, tropical storm paths, and extreme weather events hours to days
faster than traditional fluid-dynamics supercomputers, using a fraction of the runtime energy.
Power Grid Optimization: Machine learning algorithms are used by regional grid operators
to forecast intermittent solar and wind generation, minimizing the need to spin up backup
fossil-fuel plants during sudden weather shifts.
Real-World Consequences of the AI Expansion
Economic Impacts
Utility Cost-Shifting: When massive data centers enter a regional grid, the multi-billion
dollar transmission upgrades required to support them are often subsidized or shared across
the entire ratepayer base. This has triggered residential electric rate hikes in states absorbing
rapid data center growth.
Low Long-Term Job Creation: Data center construction generates short-term labor booms,
but once operational, a multi-hundred-acre hyperscale facility typically employs only 30 to 50
permanent staff (mostly security, facilities maintenance, and basic IT technicians). The yield
of long-term jobs relative to land, water, and power consumption is lower than nearly any
traditional industrial manufacturing plant.
Human and Community Impacts
Quality of Life Disruptions: Near existing hubs, neighboring residents report continuous,
low-frequency acoustic hums from massive industrial cooling fans and roof chillers.
Air Quality Risks: Hyperscale data centers maintain arrays of large industrial diesel backup
generators to ensure 99.999% uptime during grid fluctuations. Routine testing and
emergency usage release localized particulate matter (
into surrounding residential air basins.
PM2.5
) and nitrogen oxides (
Why Tech Companies Target Areas Like Southern Indiana
NOx
Data center developers follow specific financial, regulatory, and infrastructural formulas when
selecting locations:
Aggressive Tax Incentives: Indiana offers sales and use tax exemptions on data center
equipment that can last up to 50 years for projects meeting investment thresholds. Local
municipalities frequently grant 100% real estate property tax abatements to attract capital
investment figures, even if permanent employment is minimal.
)
Grid Proximity and Substation Access: Southern and Central Indiana sit along key high
voltage transmission lines managed by major regional grid operators (MISO and PJM).
Developers seek sites directly adjacent to existing 345kV/500kV power lines to avoid building
hundreds of miles of new high-voltage infrastructure.
Aquifer Access: Facilities using evaporative cooling require access to large water sources.
Indiana’s river basins and abundant glacial aquifers provide cheap surface and groundwater
access relative to drier western states.
Saturated Traditional Markets: Historical data center hubs—such as Loudoun County,
Virginia, or Silicon Valley—are facing severe power grid congestion, land shortages, and high
real estate prices. Developers are pushing into the Midwest to find vast tracts of cheap,
contiguous agricultural land where local zoning regulations are easier to navigate.
Regulatory Patchworks: Unlike urban areas with established environmental oversight on
industrial noise and resource usage, smaller county commissions often lack specialized
ordinances governing hyperscale data centers. Developers often secure approvals or
rezoning before local communities fully realize the long-term energy and water requirements.
Economic Impacts
Utility Cost-Shifting: When massive data centers enter a regional grid, the multi-billion
dollar transmission upgrades required to support them are often subsidized or shared across
the entire ratepayer base. This has triggered residential electric rate hikes in states absorbing
rapid data center growth.
Low Long-Term Job Creation: Data center construction generates short-term labor booms,
but once operational, a multi-hundred-acre hyperscale facility typically employs only 30 to 50
permanent staff (mostly security, facilities maintenance, and basic IT technicians). The yield
of long-term jobs relative to land, water, and power consumption is lower than nearly any
traditional industrial manufacturing plant.
Human and Community Impacts
Quality of Life Disruptions: Near existing hubs, neighboring residents report continuous,
low-frequency acoustic hums from massive industrial cooling fans and roof chillers.
Air Quality Risks: Hyperscale data centers maintain arrays of large industrial diesel backup
generators to ensure 99.999% uptime during grid fluctuations. Routine testing and
emergency usage release localized particulate matter (
into surrounding residential air basins.
PM2.5
) and nitrogen oxides (
Why Tech Companies Target Areas Like Southern Indiana
NOx
Data center developers follow specific financial, regulatory, and infrastructural formulas when
selecting locations:
Aggressive Tax Incentives: Indiana offers sales and use tax exemptions on data center
equipment that can last up to 50 years for projects meeting investment thresholds. Local
municipalities frequently grant 100% real estate property tax abatements to attract capital
investment figures, even if permanent employment is minimal.
)
Grid Proximity and Substation Access: Southern and Central Indiana sit along key high
voltage transmission lines managed by major regional grid operators (MISO and PJM).
Developers seek sites directly adjacent to existing 345kV/500kV power lines to avoid building
hundreds of miles of new high-voltage infrastructure.
Aquifer Access: Facilities using evaporative cooling require access to large water sources.
Indiana’s river basins and abundant glacial aquifers provide cheap surface and groundwater
access relative to drier western states.
Saturated Traditional Markets: Historical data center hubs—such as Loudoun County,
Virginia, or Silicon Valley—are facing severe power grid congestion, land shortages, and high
real estate prices. Developers are pushing into the Midwest to find vast tracts of cheap,
contiguous agricultural land where local zoning regulations are easier to navigate.
Regulatory Patchworks: Unlike urban areas with established environmental oversight on
industrial noise and resource usage, smaller county commissions often lack specialized
ordinances governing hyperscale data centers. Developers often secure approvals or
rezoning before local communities fully realize the long-term energy and water requirements.
Sources
1. How AI Solved Biology's Biggest Mystery - Connecticut College
2. The Impact of AI - IBM
3. The Issues: Data Centers - Hoosier Environmental Council
4. IU: Tech companies, governments could do more to reduce environmental impacts of data
centers - WFYI
5. In Indiana, an anatomy of data center opposition | Latitude Media
User prompt: All of my questions havent been answered from my initial comment, can you review
and answer the remaining to the extent you are allowed?
Response: While the previous breakdown addressed the core positive mechanics,
environmental/economic trade-offs, and siting incentives, a few distinct elements from your initial
prompt deserve direct, specific focus:
What are the real-world consequences specifically for human beings? Beyond
economic cost-shifting, the human impacts center on public health and localized disruption.
On-site emergency power relies heavily on large clusters of backup diesel generators.
Routine testing and extended backup operation release fine particulate matter (
nitrogen oxides (
NOx
PM2.5
) and
), which worsen air quality and elevate respiratory risks for neighboring
residents. Additionally, multi-facility campuses create constant, low-frequency hums from
industrial chillers, which nearby residents report causes sleep disruption and chronic stress.
Why do companies build specifically in areas with fragile ecosystems (like Southern
Indiana) despite clear negative impacts? To tech firms and site developers, land choice is
driven almost entirely by immediate capital efficiency and infrastructural speed:
Direct Access to Power Corridors: Southern and Central Indiana sit along massive,
high-voltage transmission lines (managed by MISO and PJM). Tapping directly into
these existing substations saves developers years of time and hundreds of millions of
dollars compared to upgrading urban grids.
Cheap Contiguous Acreage: Agricultural plots, floodplains, and forested areas are
cheap and easily acquired in multi-hundred-acre blocks. Because layout efficiency is
prioritized, companies often choose to pave over or alter local wetlands rather than
redesign facilities to fit tighter, pre-industrialized footprints.
Abundant Aquifers: Regions near major river basins provide low-cost access to
millions of gallons of groundwater daily for evaporative cooling.
Regulatory Path of Least Resistance: Rural county commissions often lack existing
zoning protections or environmental ordinances specifically tailored to hyperscale data
centers. Combined with long-term state tax exemptions, developers can secure
approvals before local regulatory frameworks can react.
Is the scale of AI's positive impact proportional to its footprint? This is the core tension.
While AI tools provide real, objective breakthroughs in scientific fields like genomics and
weather modeling, those computational workloads account for a small fraction of overall
global data center capacity. The vast majority of new energy, land, and water demand is
driven by commercial generative AI, cloud infrastructure, and video processing, creating a
sharp mismatch between where the environmental burden is placed and where the tangible
public benefits land.
Sources
1. Data Centers: Fact Sheets: Resources - Environmental Resilience Institute - Indiana
University
2. Google Data Center Announces Plans to Pave Over Protected Wetlands - Futurism
User prompt: Why is it that in indiana the vast majority of the civilian population and landowners do
not want these data centers for all of the above reasons and let their local government know and it
not change anything? I know in the 80s indiana abolished referendums and thats part of it, but what
could be the long term consequences of the government and these corporations ignoring the will of
the people? Is it likely nothing will happen? What are some historical precedents relevant to the
cultural climate of southern indiana?
Response: The disconnect between widespread citizen opposition and local government approval
is not unique to data centers, but the rapid expansion of AI infrastructure has exposed deep
structural flaws in local governance.
Why Local Governments Ignore Public Pushback
When hundreds of residents pack a county commissioner meeting to protest a rezoning request,
the decision to approve the project anyway usually comes down to three systemic pressures:
Asymmetric Legal and Financial Power: Developers come armed with non-disclosure
agreements (NDAs), high-priced real estate attorneys, and pre-packaged economic impact
studies. Rural or small-county commissioners—often serving part-time—face implicit or
explicit threats of "regulatory takings" lawsuits if they arbitrarily deny a land-use permit that
technically complies with existing, outdated zoning codes.
The "Tax Base" Trap: Local governments are constantly searching for revenue to fund
schools, repair rural roads, and maintain emergency services without raising residential
property taxes. A multi-hundred-million-dollar data center promises millions in short-term tax
revenue, making it nearly irresistible to local officials looking at long-term budget deficits.
Insulated Decision-Making Boards: Major zoning and development decisions are rarely
made directly by elected council members. They are often delegated to appointed bodies—
such as Plan Commissions or Metropolitan Development Commissions. Because these board
members are appointed (often by a mayor or county executive) rather than directly elected,
they are politically insulated from voter backlash.
State-Level Preemption and Incentives: Indiana’s state legislature deliberately created
state-level tax exemptions (such as 25- to 50-year sales tax waivers on data center
equipment) to attract tech investment. Even if local officials want to say no, state policy
aggressively signals that Indiana is "open for business," creating top-down pressure on local
economic development boards.
Is It Likely "Nothing Will Happen"
AI's Real-World Impacts and Data Centers
It is incorrect to assume that public resistance is entirely futile. While projects backed by deep
capital often force their way through, organizing can and does shift the landscape:
County Moratoriums: Facing overwhelming constituent pressure, nearly a third of Indiana
counties have moved to enact temporary moratoriums, ban data centers, or sharply restrict
where they can build. Indianapolis/Marion County voted overwhelmingly for a temporary
moratorium through 2027 to force tighter restrictions on noise, water usage, and set-back
distances.
Project Cancellations: Nationally, organized local coalitions have successfully delayed or
forced developers to abandon over $60 billion in proposed data center projects through
strategic zoning appeals and persistent public pressure.
However, when governments continuously bypass public consensus, predictable structural
outcomes follow:
Long-Term Consequences of Overriding the Public
Political Volatility and Primary Ejections: Local commissioners who vote through
unpopular land-use changes frequently face targeted primary challenges from single-issue
grass-roots movements, leading to high turn-over in local offices and ongoing policy swings.
Erosion of Institutional Trust: When public hearings feel like a "dog-and-pony show"—
where residents speak for hours only for the board to vote unanimously in favor of a
developer—faith in local democracy collapses. This fuels deep cynicism, lowers civic
participation, and drives anti-development populism across all future infrastructure projects
(including housing or renewable energy).
Litigation Strain: Citizen groups increasingly form non-profit coalitions to sue local plan
commissions over procedural violations, forcing cash-strapped local governments to spend
taxpayer dollars defending corporate developers in court.
Historical Precedents in Southern Indiana
The current cultural resistance in Southern Indiana is deeply rooted in the region's socio-political
history. The cultural climate of Southern and Rural Indiana has long been defined by skepticism of
outside capital, state preemption, and industrial exploitation:
The Timber and Limestone Boom-and-Bust Cycles: Historically, Southern Indiana
experienced intense resource extraction by outside corporations—first through logging that
cleared native hardwood forests, then through quarrying limestone and mining coal.
Communities saw massive wealth generated from their soil, only for the profits to leave the
region while leaving behind scarred topographies, abandoned quarries, and polluted
watersheds. The current data center push evokes a similar anxiety: an outside corporate
giant taking local resources (water and power) and leaving minimal long-term jobs behind.
The Unwanted Landfill and Toxic Waste Battles: In the mid-to-late 20th century, rural
Southern and Central Indiana counties were frequently targeted by state agencies and waste
management firms as designated sites for regional landfills, hazardous waste dumps, and
coal-ash storage. Time and again, rural residents organized against feeling like the "dumping
ground" for urban centers, instilling a deep, generational distrust of county commissioners
making land deals behind closed doors.
The Abolition of Local Referendums: Indiana’s historical shift away from binding local
ballot referendums on routine municipal planning stripped citizens of a direct legislative check
on their leaders. Deprived of a simple "Yes/No" ballot box metric on major developments,
rural Hoosier activism historically turns to visible, decentralized civil resistance—flooding
public comment sessions, mass yard-sign campaigns, court injunctions, and voting out
incumbent county leadership.
The tension playing out today over AI data centers is the modern continuation of this historical
pattern: a clash between top-down state economic planning and a local populace fiercely protective
of land ownership, local aquifers, and community autonomy.
Sources
1. Indianapolis councilors approve data center moratorium - Mirror Indy
2. Data Center Sales Tax Exemption - Indiana Economic Development Corporation
3. Indianapolis residents push back against data center by unknown company - WFYI
4. In Indiana, an anatomy of data center opposition | Latitude Media
User prompt: What are some publically known actions and groups in southern indiana that qualify
as non partisan currently doing to make the voice of the people heard in a civil way and have any
of them cited these historical precedents? Have any of them made a dent? Weighing the practical
outcome of local pushback to the might of corporate capital, what are the realistic outcomes of
these groups? Also, how can looking back historically at economic protections like the monopoly
busting era provide insight to potential future events?
Response: Non-partisan civic groups, neighborhood coalitions, and statewide environmental
watchdogs across Southern and Central Indiana are actively organizing to challenge unchecked
tech developments. Rather than relying on ideological rhetoric, their actions focus on local
administrative law, property rights, environmental conservation, and ratepayer equity.
Non-Partisan Actions and Coalitions in Indiana
A network of hyper-local citizen alliances—often working alongside established non-partisan policy
groups—is driving public engagement:
Grassroots County Coalitions: Groups like Protect Morgan County, Shelby County Citizens
Against Data Centers, Warrick County Data Center Discussion, and Washington, IN
Residents Against Data Center were formed by local landowners, farmers, and suburban
residents. Their tactics are strictly civil and process-driven: filing public records requests,
packing county plan commission meetings, distributing "No Data Center" yard signs, and
raising funds to retain land-use attorneys to challenge rezoning petitions.
Policy & Ratepayer Advocacy: Organizations like the Citizens Action Coalition (CAC) and
Earth Charter Indiana provide technical toolkits to help rural residents navigate zoning law
and evaluate utility tariff structures. In mid-2026, a coalition of 27 public interest organizations
coordinated a unified call for local governments to pass moratoriums.
Historical Precedents Cited by Organizers: Groups explicitly reference past Indiana
environmental battles to educate residents:
The PCB Contamination Battles (Bloomington/Southern Indiana): Referencing
Westinghouse's historic contamination of local streams, organizers emphasize that
corporate environmental promises mean little once chemical or thermal pollutants enter
local watersheds.
Coal Ash & Landfill Fights: Local groups invoke previous regional fights against toxic
landfills and unlined coal-ash ponds to highlight how rural land is frequently treated as a
sacrifice zone for urban or corporate power needs.
Have They Made a Dent? (Realistic Outcomes)
When pitted against multinational tech corporations and state-level tax incentives, local pushback
faces an asymmetric fight, but it is making a tangible impact:
Tangible Wins (Moratoriums & Cancellations):
Over 17 Indiana counties have passed temporary moratoriums or strict zoning
overlays, and at least two (Marshall and Cass) voted to ban hyperscale facilities
outright.
Public pressure forced high-profile project withdrawals, including Google dropping a
heavily contested rezoning request in Franklin Township.
City-county councils (including Indianapolis/Marion County) voted 23-1 to enact a data
center development moratorium through 2027 to study water, power, and acoustic
impacts before issuing new permits.
Realistic Long-Term Scenarios:
1. Spatial Displacement ("Whack-a-Mole"): Blocking a site in one county often redirects
developers to an adjacent county with fewer zoning protections.
2. State-Level Preemption: If enough counties enact local bans, the state legislature may
attempt to override local control by passing preemption laws that strip county plan
commissions of their power to block "critical energy infrastructure."
3. Negotiated Concessions: The most common realistic victory is forcing developers to
switch from evaporative water-cooling to closed-loop air cooling, set noise caps at
property lines (e.g., 65 dB), and pay for dedicated power substations rather than shifting
utility costs onto local ratepayers.
Historical Insight: The Monopoly-Busting Era & Future AI Infrastructure
Looking back at the late 19th and early 20th century Gilded Age—specifically the rise of rail,
telegraph, and electric utility monopolies—offers a roadmap for how industrial expansion usually
plays out:
Infrastructural Overreach Triggers Federal Action: Standard Oil, Western Union, and early
electric trusts operated by securing preferential local tax deals, controlling access to essential
networks, and forcing local communities to bear environmental externalities. This systemic
overreach eventually unified rural farmers, urban workers, and small business owners into a
single political bloc, leading to the Sherman Antitrust Act (1890) and the Clayton Act
(1914).
The Public Utility Framework (The Likely Parallel): During the early electrical expansion,
private power providers built dangerous, unregulated power lines wherever profitable,
sparking severe public backlash. The policy solution was not to destroy the technology, but to
reclassify electricity as a public utility—subjecting power companies to strict regulatory
commissions that dictated where facilities could be built, capped rate increases, and
mandated public benefit obligations.
What This Means for the AI Era: History suggests that current hyper-localized battles over data
centers are the early phase of a larger systemic shift. As power grid instability and water depletion
affect broader populations, local pushback will likely coalesce into federal and state-level utility
reform. AI infrastructure will ultimately be forced into a public utility or heavy regulatory framework
—requiring strict environmental compliance, transparent water reporting, and mandatory local
infrastructure investment before a single shovel hits the dirt.
Sources
1. In Indiana, an anatomy of data center opposition | Latitude Media
2. Effective Resistance vs Whack-a-Mole - Earth Charter Indiana
3. 27 Public Interest Organizations Call on Indiana Local Governments to Enact Data Center
Moratorium | Citizens Action Coalition
4. Indy council advances pause on data centers, sends to commission for final approval - WFYI
User prompt: How can the historical insights actually playout similarly in modern times when the
culture has changed so drastically since then with disenfranchised voters and a federal and state
governments support the AI industry via withheld restrictions?
Response: The user's core observation highlights the key obstacle: top-down federal and state
policies actively shield the AI industry from environmental and zoning friction, while widespread
voter cynicism makes large-scale legislative reform seem nearly impossible.
Historically, major structural shifts—like public utility regulation or antitrust enforcement during the
Gilded Age—did not happen because politicians suddenly prioritized public interest over corporate
donors. They occurred when unregulated expansion collided directly with physical, financial,
and infrastructural limits that forced state and corporate leaders to intervene to prevent system
wide collapse.
How Historical Models Frictionally Play Out Under Modern Conditions
Pocketbook Pressure Overcomes Political Disengagement: During the early electric grid
expansion, public backlash wasn't driven by abstract political theory, but by ordinary citizens
facing soaring electric bills and unreliable service. Today, as massive data centers draw multi
gigawatt power loads, regional grid operators (like PJM and MISO) and utility commissions
face severe capacity shortfalls. When state regulators try to pass the multi-billion-dollar grid
upgrade costs onto residential utility bills, pocketbook pressure triggers intense, bipartisan
voter outrage. State utility commissions—even those heavily aligned with tech expansion—
are forced to enact "ratepayer protection" laws to prevent suburban and rural voters from
subsidizing corporate energy use.
Localized "Veto Points" Create Multi-Billion-Dollar Delays: While federal executive orders
attempt to streamline permitting and preempt state restrictions, the U.S. legal framework
leaves land zoning, water rights, and local road use in the hands of municipalities. Hundreds
of local moratoriums, county bans, and permit appeals across the country have delayed or
blocked over $130 billion in planned AI infrastructure. When corporate capital encounters
persistent localized friction, tech firms themselves begin pushing for standardized regulatory
frameworks to gain long-term legal certainty rather than fighting endless county-by-county
land battles.
The Transition to "Public Utility" Reclassification: In the late 19th century, private railroad
and telegraph monopolies operated with zero federal oversight until their predatory pricing
paralyzed agriculture and small businesses. The federal government didn't destroy the
railroads; it reclassified them as common carriers bound by public interest obligations.
Today, grid regulators (including FERC) are shifting toward treating data center power
demands under a similar framework—requiring developers to build off-grid power generation,
fund their own substation infrastructure, or accept interruptible power service during peak
demand hours.
Corporate Self-Interest Forces Environmental Adaptation: In response to groundwater
depletion, thermal pollution lawsuits, and severe community resistance, hyperscalers are
increasingly forced to abandon open-loop evaporative water cooling in favor of closed-loop or
dry-cooling systems, despite the higher upfront capital cost. Reform rarely comes from
corporate goodwill; it comes when the financial risk of project delays, lawsuits, and grid
instability exceeds the cost of environmental compliance.
The Realistic Path Forward
Change in modern infrastructure fights rarely resembles a sudden, sweeping federal bill. Instead, it
operates as a series of compounding friction points: hyper-local zoning denials stack into
regional grid bottlenecks, rising residential electric bills fuel local political turnover, and utility
commissions step in to protect grid stability. Over time, these cumulative economic and physical
realities force state legislatures and federal agencies to transition from granting blanket exemptions
to imposing strict regulatory boundaries.
Sources
1. Data Center Legislative Trends | Encino Environmental Services
2. Data center backlash signals a fight over AI power - Brookings Institution
3. The Future of Data Center Power: Federal Policy Trends | ArentFox Schiff
User prompt: Keeping a thumb on the pulse of cultural feedback, how does the environmental
impact of these AI data centers conflict with the nation wide push for environmental protection and
renewable energy? How are these companies presenting a face of environmental stewardship
while their actions are effectively causing the harm they claim to work hard to prevent? Can they be
held accountable for this duplicity in representing their intentions on one way and the real life
impact not reflecting those intentions?
Response: The Conflict with National Renewable Energy Goals
The rapid expansion of AI hardware directly collides with the nation's broader decarbonization
timeline. While the U.S. electrical grid has spent over a decade slowly replacing fossil-fuel plants
with solar and wind, the sudden multi-gigawatt surge in AI data center demand is outpacing how
fast clean energy can physically be built and connected to transmission networks.
Reversing Coal and Gas Retirements: Because tech firms require "firm, 24/7 power" that
doesn't fluctuate when the sun sets or the wind drops, electric utilities are keeping aging coal
fired power plants operational past their scheduled retirement dates.
Cannibalizing Clean Power: In regions where large solar and wind farms are online, data
centers often purchase the vast majority of that renewable output through long-term
contracts. While this technically powers the server racks with clean energy, it removes that
clean capacity from the public grid, forcing local residents and other industries to rely on
natural gas and coal to fill the gap.
How Companies Present "Green Stewardship" vs. Real Impact
To maintain high ESG (Environmental, Social, and Governance) ratings and appeal to
environmentally conscious consumers, tech conglomerates rely on specific carbon-accounting
frameworks to present a picture of sustainability that masks their physical impact:
Market-Based vs. Location-Based Accounting: A company can build a high-emissions
data center connected to a coal-heavy regional grid (like MISO in the Midwest) and report its
"market-based emissions" as low or zero. They achieve this by purchasing Renewable
Energy Certificates (RECs) or Power Purchase Agreements (PPAs) from a wind farm
hundreds of miles away. On paper, their corporate ledger shows zero net carbon; in physical
reality, the local smokestacks next to the data center burn coal and gas continuously to
supply their servers.
Conflating Traditional AI with Generative AI: Corporate sustainability reports frequently
highlight how machine learning optimizes logistics or tracks deforestation. However,
independent climate watchdog studies highlight a critical distinction: low-compute, task
specific traditional machine learning generates minor emissions, whereas energy-dense
Generative AI (LLMs, media generation) drives massive fossil fuel consumption. Companies
blend both under the broad banner of "AI for Sustainability" to justify the footprint of
generative models.
Ignoring Scope 3 and "Enabled" Emissions: Corporate net-zero goals routinely focus on
direct operational emissions (Scope 1 and 2) while downplaying or omitting Scope 3
emissions—which include the vast carbon footprint of manufacturing GPUs, extracting rare
earth metals, constructing concrete hyperscale buildings, and powering unpermitted backup
gas turbines.
Can Companies Be Held Accountable for This Duplicity?
Holding multinational firms accountable for the gap between public branding and environmental
impact relies on three distinct legal and regulatory avenues:
1. Greenwashing & Securities Litigation
Regulatory agencies and public-interest legal groups are using existing anti-fraud and consumer
protection frameworks to target misleading environmental claims:
SEC Scrutiny on Net-Zero Claims: If a publicly traded company claims it is on track for "Net
Zero by 2030" in shareholder filings while its actual carbon footprint increases year-over-year
due to AI infrastructure, investors can file class-action lawsuits alleging material
misrepresentation under securities law.
Consumer Protection and Unfair Trade Laws: Under updated consumer protection
directives and FTC "Green Guides," making broad claims about "carbon-neutral AI" without
verifiable third-party evidence—or relying solely on paper RECs while driving real-world grid
emissions up—is increasingly classified as deceptive trade practices.
2. Environmental Lawsuits and Statutory Violations
Communities and environmental advocacy groups are directly challenging data center operations
in court using landmark environmental statutes:
Clean Air Act Violations: Citizens groups and advocacy organizations (such as the NAACP)
have filed injunctions against tech operations—such as xAI’s facility in Memphis—alleging
that running arrays of unpermitted industrial gas turbines for server power releases toxic
PM2.5
and
NOx
assessments.
emissions directly into local air basins without proper environmental impact
NEPA & Clean Water Act Challenges: Non-profit legal networks (like the Center for
Environmental Advocacy) are securing temporary injunctions to halt multi-hundred-acre data
center projects by proving that local planning boards failed to conduct rigorous, legally
mandated environmental reviews regarding localized aquifer depletion and thermal water
pollution.
3. Shift Toward "24/7 Carbon-Free Energy" Rules
Policy experts and ratepayer advocates are pushing state utility commissions to outlaw "paper
offset greenwashing". Under new 24/7 Hourly Matching standards, a tech company cannot claim
a data center is powered by renewables unless clean energy is being generated on the exact same
regional grid during the exact hour the servers consume it. Enforcing hourly matching eliminates
the loophole of using distant solar credits to cover midnight coal consumption, forcing companies to
directly fund local battery storage and clean infrastructure before building.
Sources
1. AI scale and climate commitments: A 2026 outlook | Carbon Direct
2. Big Tech accused of AI 'greenwashing' - NationofChange
3. Not greenwashing, but still… A closer look at big tech's 2025 sustainability reports
4. Contesting Big Tech's AI Greenwashing - Verfassungsblog
5. May 2026 Tech Litigation Roundup & Analysis: Environmental Lawsuits Present Roadblock
for the AI Data Center Boom
User prompt: What is legally happening right now to hold these companies accountable and
represent the needs of the communities and the ecosystem in southern indiana?
Response: Grassroots movements, environmental coalitions, and local residents across Indiana
are shifting away from public commentary and actively leveraging administrative law, state courts,
regulatory utility dockets, and local legislative channels to halt or condition tech developments.
Judicial Appeals and Lawsuits (Judicial Review)
Because state law limits direct ballot referendums, citizens and community groups are filing formal
civil complaints in county superior courts, requesting Judicial Reviews and Injunctions against
county plan commissions and city councils:
Environmental Cleanups and Groundwater Claims: Coalitions—supported by non-profit
groups like the Hoosier Environmental Council—have filed petitions for judicial review (such
as actions against the Metropolitan Development Commission over projects like the
Metrobloks facility). These suits ask courts to void rezoning approvals, alleging that industrial
data centers on historically contaminated industrial lots risk disturbing toxic plumes and
compromising local aquifers.
Procedural Injunctions: Neighborhood alliances in Decatur Township and surrounding rural
counties have taken similar legal action, challenging whether local zoning boards gave proper
legal notice, adhered to statutory zoning factors, or appropriately addressed public safety
concerns before approving developer variances.
Regulatory Defense at the Utility Commission (IURC)
Rather than fighting project-by-project at the county level, ratepayer advocacy groups—led by the
Citizens Action Coalition (CAC)—are taking the fight directly to the Indiana Utility Regulatory
Commission (IURC):
Fighting Utility Cost-Shifting: When major power providers (like Duke Energy Indiana or
AES Indiana) request grid expansion approvals or new rate structures to supply massive tech
loads, CAC intervenes in official dockets (e.g., Cause No. 46394). Their legal teams submit
expert testimony demanding ring-fencing, tariff protections, and full cost disclosure to ensure
tech companies—not everyday residential ratepayers—pay 100% of the cost for new high
voltage substations and power plants.
Challenging Coal-Plant Extension Orders: Environmental advocacy groups are filing legal
interventions against utility strategies that seek to delay coal plant retirements or install
unpermitted backup gas infrastructure, citing Clean Air Act standards and regional watershed
degradation.
Local Legislative Interventions (Moratoriums and Zoning Overlays)
Organized community pressure has turned county and municipal zoning boards into active
regulatory battlegrounds:
Expanding Moratorium Network: Over 17 Indiana counties—along with municipalities like
Indianapolis and New Albany—have successfully passed temporary moratoriums. These
pauses legally halt new data center approvals until comprehensive studies on water
drawdowns, noise caps, and energy infrastructure can be completed.
Outright Bans and Special Zoning Classes: Counties like Marshall and Cass voted to ban
hyperscale data centers. Elsewhere, councils are enacting strict new zoning classifications
(such as special-use standards) that strip data centers of "permitted use" status on
agricultural land, requiring mandatory public hearings, 65-dB noise thresholds at property
lines, and developer-funded independent environmental impact assessments.
State Legislative Accountability and Tax Abatement Battles
Restricting Blanket Tax Incentives: At the statehouse level, advocacy groups successfully
fought against bills (like provisions within HB 1333) that attempted to automatically classify
data centers as "permitted uses" on rural farmland.
Challenging Tax Abatements: Local advocacy coalitions are turning up the heat on county
executives and city councils to vote down long-term property tax abatements. By showing
that these facilities generate minimal long-term jobs while depleting public infrastructure,
community pressure has successfully forced local officials to reject multi-million-dollar tax
relief packages for tech developers.
Sources
1. Martindale-Brightwood residents take data center fight to court, citing environmental racism
2. AES | Citizens Action Coalition
3. Data center moratorium advances for Indianapolis - WFYI
4. Legislation Tracker - Tracking American AI Data Center Buildout
5. Indiana - Data Center Moratoriums
User prompt: Narrow down this to morgan county, what is the answer to that question specifically
there regarding lawsuits, civil action and tangible pushback against county officials?
Response: In Morgan County, Indiana, the epicenter of this conflict is concentrated around
"Project Louie"—a massive Google data center campus proposed across nearly 550 acres of
agricultural land near Monrovia in Monroe Township.
The opposition in Morgan County provides a direct look at the legal actions, civil pushback, and
friction against county officials:
1. Lawsuits and Judicial Petitions Filed Against County Decisions
When county officials voted to approve rezoning requests for the data center despite overwhelming
public opposition, local landowners moved directly into the court system:
Verified Petitions for Judicial Review: Neighboring property owners (such as local
residents Susan Bouliann Kessler and Teresa L. Moore, represented by environmental
attorney David E. Dearing) filed formal legal petitions in Morgan County Superior Court I.
The lawsuit asks a judge to overturn the Morgan County Commissioners' decision to approve
the Planned Unit Development (PUD) rezoning.
Allegations of Due Process and Procedural Violations: The suit alleges that county
officials acted arbitrarily and capriciously, failed to adhere to the county’s comprehensive
plan, and violated open-governance principles. A major legal claim highlights that public
hearings and notices were conducted without disclosing the actual developer or end-user
(Google), violating the public's right to meaningful participation.
The Non-Disclosure Agreement (NDA) Backlash: Early in the process, residents
discovered that elected and appointed county officials, as well as the Morgan County
Economic Development Corporation, had signed NDAs with the developer. Legal filings and
public challenges cite these NDAs as an unlawful circumventing of the Indiana Open Door
Law and due process, arguing officials compromised their duty to constituents before public
hearings ever began.
2. Organized Grassroots Alliances and Legal Fundraising
Rather than isolated complaints, community pushback in Morgan County is coordinated through
hyper-local coalitions:
Protect Morgan County: Formed specifically by local residents, farmers, and neighbors
around West Keller Hill Road, this non-partisan group organizes town halls, coordinates
public testimony, and files public records requests.
Retaining Specialized Legal Counsel: Recognizing that public comment alone rarely stops
a rezoning board, the group initiated crowdfunding campaigns (such as dedicated legal
funds) to hire land-use attorneys to challenge the county’s procedural steps, track utility
expansion permits, and file court injunctions.
3. Tangible Pushback Against County Officials
The friction between residents and local government in Morgan County has manifested in direct,
visible ways:
Packed Public Hearings and Split Votes: Over 100 to 200 residents consistently pack
Morgan County Plan Commission and Town Hall meetings. While the Plan Commission
ultimately recommended rezoning for Phase 1 (390 acres) and Phase 2 (158 additional
acres), public pressure forced split votes among board members (such as 5-2 decisions),
breaking the usual unanimous approval baseline for economic development projects.
Exposing the Grid and Utility Impact: Local residents, working alongside statewide
watchdogs like the Citizens Action Coalition (CAC), have targeted the utility side of the
project. They publicly exposed that AES Indiana is seeking multi-hundred-megawatt battery
storage facilities and new high-voltage transmission lines—and potentially using eminent
domain on local farmland—to power Google's Monrovia facility. Highlighting the threat of
forced land acquisition for private corporate infrastructure has turned local sentiment sharply
against the project.
Political Accountability: County commissioners and plan commission members who signed
NDAs or voted through the rezoning face severe backlash from their voting base. As seen in
neighboring Indiana counties, this dynamic frequently leads to targeted primary election
challenges against incumbent commissioners who vote against community consensus.
Summary of the Realistic Outcome in Morgan County
While the Morgan County Commissioners approved the initial rezoning requests despite public
outcry, the project is far from smooth sailing. The legal petitions pending in court, combined with
active utility interventions before state commissions over transmission lines and rate increases,
have tied "Project Louie" up in significant procedural, legal, and political friction. This resistance in
Morgan County has served as a blueprint for surrounding Hoosier communities to enact
moratoriums and pass preemptive zoning restrictions before developers arrive.
Sources
1. Data center rezone gets green light | morgancountycorrespondent.com
2. Suit filed | morgancountycorrespondent.com
3. Activist group blasts Monrovia data center project
User prompt: Is there any tangible possibility that in order for these companies to build what they
want they might be compelled to act to physically offset environmental harm with equally
proportionate conservation efforts? Have any of them used the unoccupied portions of acquired
land for conservational purposes? Could they be compelled to do so legally?
Response: Companies can be compelled to execute environmental mitigation and conservation,
but under current federal and state laws, the legal mechanisms require proportionate, specific
impact offsets rather than voluntary or broad environmental stewardship.
1. How Companies Can Be Legally Compelled to Offset Harm
Under existing administrative frameworks, local planning boards and state regulatory agencies hold
legal tools to force tech developers to protect land:
Clean Water Act & Wetland Mitigation Credits: Under Section 404 of the Clean Water Act
and State isolated wetland laws, if a developer fills in streams or wetlands, they are legally
barred from completing the project unless they offset those losses. For example, in Google's
"Project Louie" in Morgan County, the Indiana Department of Environmental Management
(IDEM) required the developer to restore 415 linear feet of stream on-site and purchase
state-mandated wetland and stream credits via the DNR's In-Lieu-Fee program to offset the
627 feet of stream and 0.05 acres of wetlands impacted by construction.
Planned Unit Development (PUD) Zoning Conditions: Local county commissions have
significant power when negotiating special zoning classifications (like PUDs). Communities
can legally condition zoning approval on binding land-use restrictions—such as requiring
developers to deed 20% to 30% of acquired land into permanent conservation easements,
install native pollinator/prairie buffer zones, or establish re-forested acoustic tree buffers along
property lines.
Stormwater and Aquifer Management Mandates: Because paving over hundreds of acres
of farmland creates massive non-porous surfaces that cause localized flooding, state
environmental agencies mandate the construction of on-site retention ponds, constructed
wetlands, and bio-swales to recharge local aquifers and prevent runoff.
2. Are Companies Using Unoccupied Land for Conservation?
Yes, tech conglomerates routinely reserve major portions of their acquired campus footprints for
green buffers and habitat restoration—though these initiatives often serve a dual operational
purpose
Acoustic and Visual Buffers: Hyperscale campuses require massive acreage, but the
actual server facilities typically occupy only a fraction of the total parcel. To reduce the 65+
decibel hum of industrial cooling units and comply with local setback rules, developers
routinely plant native hardwood tree belts or leave existing woodlots untouched around the
campus perimeter.
Solar Integration & Prairie Restorations: Around campuses in the Midwest, companies
(including Google, Meta, and Microsoft) have converted unbuilt acreage into solar arrays
paired with native prairie grasses. Planted native flora requires no fertilizers or pesticides,
restores deep topsoil, and creates habitats for local pollinators while fulfilling corporate
renewable energy goals.
On-Site Wetland Creation: When developers cannot avoid impacting natural drainage
paths, they frequently engineer artificial wetlands or restore degraded streams on unused
portions of their parcels.
3. The Catch: Mitigation vs. True Restoration
While these companies comply with mandatory mitigation laws, environmental advocacy groups
point out significant legal and practical limits:
Aspect
"In-Lieu-Fee"
Offsets
Avoidance vs.
Minimization
Monoculture
Buffers
Regulatory Reality
Companies can pay money into
state funds rather than restoring
local land.
Regulatory filings often state
that avoiding wetlands "is not
feasible" due to building
layouts.
Community Concern
The environmental damage happens
locally (e.g., Morgan County), while
restored wetlands may be located
counties away.
Companies prioritize engineering
convenience over preserving mature
woodlots or natural floodplains.
Green space is often
landscaped for visual screening
rather than biodiversity.
Turf grass or basic tree rows do not
replace complex, pre-existing agricultural
or wetland ecosystems.
How Communities Are Forcing Real Conservation
If a community wants to ensure that a tech developer is forced to execute genuine, local
conservation rather than relying on paper credits or minimal offsets, the pressure must be applied
before zoning permits are finalized:
1. Enact Binding Conservation Overlays: County Plan Commissions can mandate that a
specific percentage of any hyperscale parcel be placed under a permanent Conservation
Easement managed by a local land trust.
2. Demand On-Site Offset Mandates: Local boards can ban "off-site mitigation credit
purchases," requiring that 100% of stream, tree, and wetland restoration occurs directly within
the county where the impact takes place.
3. Mandate Closed-Loop Cooling: Requiring dry or closed-loop cooling systems in local
zoning codes eliminates daily multi-million-gallon groundwater draws, preventing depletion of
local aquifers.
Sources
1. PUBLIC NOTICE - IN.gov
2. Doing no "evil," Google proposes paving over protected wetlands for a data center
THE DATA CENTER
audrey
July 11, 2026
Today is the second day of the Morgan County Fair and I've been told that google, in all its oh so magnanimous and charitable nature has made it so the parking and ice cream is free. Why? I'm sure they'll say its community outreach but really its like giving a cookie to appease an angry toddler, or like corporate giving pizza parties instead of proper benefits. To say I am pissed is an understatement. Fuck google, fuck whoever gave the go ahead for that at the fair and especially a huge fuck you to the county commissioner, one of which is Don Adams (more on this chode later) and everyone else involved with making this data center in Monrovia a reality. "Such language!" you might say. Cussing is the least of the issue, polite language and polite behavior is part of the poison that lead to this problem. I love Indiana, I love a lot of the people here and I love the calm, quiet culture that unfortunately is exploited by these assholes.
So, a short history on this from an ill informed local: Google came in under a shell company to court the county government and seduce them into giving the go ahead to buy out something like 350 acres on the east side of Monrovia. Officials signed NDAs and later it was revealed that this is in fact google, palms were greased and they got the go ahead to purchase even more land which amounts to I think is over 500 acres of agricultural and woodland. Farms were bought out, businesses the whole shebang. That was I think in 2024. As soon as people found out what was going on there were protests and people screaming in public meetings which, for those who don't live here, is very exceptional behavior. I didn't find out about it until this year because for my own health I've stayed out of the loop of political goings on. I get too heated and out of shape and stressed and that is exactly what happened when I found out. I was nauseous, my blood raged into my face and ears, the fury and disgust was a visceral response and I still feel that way when I think about it. We have been told our whole lives that if you want a say in local governance, that you have to get out and vote. You can go to these council meetings and make your voice heard, and this is a government made by the people, for the people. That our government operates on a mandate from the people. What an utter load of horseshit. That is not at all how it works, I'll tell you how it works. There is a social class of people in each county who are already involved in administration such as the school system and major local companies. They run for office, they put their bandit signs on the side of the road and pretty much everyone under the age of 60 don't know anything about these assholes so have no idea who to vote for or what difference it makes so a handful of people attend the local election, vote based off of ? and then the lucky asshole whose straw was drawn gets to go work for the state. Not for the people, the state. I have a suspicion that how all this works is they attend what amounts to an orientation on how to do the job and then take instruction from their superiors like any other corporate job. Nothing about this ever points back to the peoples will and that was made painfully obvious during this whole data center fiasco. Don Adams says, and I quote, "This thing has immense possibilities for what this county can become, and you'll just have to trust us, Even if you don't trust me, you'll have to."
Translation into the speech of us common peasants: "This thing is gonna make us a lot of money, so so much money. Its going to be good for me. We get to decide what happens to you and if you don't like it that's just too bad!"
The massive outcry from my normally quiet "mind your business and take care of your family" community is not something often seen here. We are mostly a libertarian leaning loosely republican lot. People here believe that if you play by the rules, pull your own weight and keep the peace that life will be good for you. People here don't make a fuss. They have made one HELL OF A FUSS. What difference did it make? Not much it seems.
People in government like Don Adams think they get to decide what's best for us and any notion that they need to take heed of the citizenry is an outdated one. They also happen to be so damn old that its unlikely they'll ever have to come to terms with the consequences of what they've done. I will, my son definitely will.
I have so many concerns about what this is going to do to our local ecosystem and to our bodies. Maybe the worst of it will be noise which is absolutely bad for insects and wildlife, but what else is going to happen? I've heard so many horror stories and there's no way I'll ever know what's true. Is it going to cause cattle to have stillbirths? Is it going to render the people near it sterile? I live pretty close to where this is going to be. From space if you want to find where this monstrosity is going to be just find the darkest, greenest place in Indiana and look just north. Where those beautiful green fields were is where this thing is going to be. Everything I've heard about what has happened up in Fort Wayne since they've built up there isn't great either. To put it plainly, I'm actually kind of scared. Friend of mine said he heard these are going to be surveillance centers for all those flock cameras and nsa type stuff.
After I had my major melt down once the news finally trickled down to my ears it occurred to me that the only thing I as an individual have power over is what I'm working on my own land, which is fostering an environment that nurtures native plants, insects and animals. I'll keep doing that and try to make it better than before, invest in some seedlings and whatnot. If society crumbles into the ground at least the plants might make it.
Some of the folks in Monrovia have filed a lawsuit which I don't have much faith in doing anything. Google is a monolith, and as much as I hate them I'm using this website with you guessed it, a google account. They're everywhere, they cannot be reasoned with or argued against. They have so much money they cannot be bought off or sued into the ground. I hope our neighbors who are in that lawsuit at least walk away with a nice wad of cash, if you cant fight the beast you can bleed it a little bit.
I'll finish this with one thought for you. Indiana is a state of quiet peaceful people who just want to build a life they can be proud of for their families and themselves. What is going to happen when these gentle people have been pushed too far? When following the rules doesn't mean anything anymore? I'll tell you one thing I sure as shit am not taking any of googles free ice cream.
This whole LURK thing.
audrey
May 21, 2026
Lurk is well on it's way to being a serious contender against mega-corp social media sites in my unenlightened opinion. As an avid social media hater I'd rather update a spider inside an old boot about my day to day activities than ever log back into facebook again, Fuckerburg is a slimy disgusting alien creature from outer space and normally I'd be a fan of that sort of thing. "Zuckerburg the Space Cannibal Takes over the Earth" sounds like a fun 80's scifi film. At least that ship is sinking. Tiktok got nuked in 2024 and what remains is a shambling corpse. I've not touched any of these new sites like Blue Sky and have no intention to do so. The only site I use on a daily basis is Pinterest and mostly that's an aesthetic feedback loop with ads.
Rate Me by Luis Quiles
I did see something about this site on my monthly foray into tiktok and was immediately intrigued. I'm proud to say I dove headfirst into this platform in these early days, however I was already considering purchasing my own domain so this came up in the opportune moment. I am a bit worried about the proprietorship and personal rights but the terms seem pretty cut and dry and I hope they stay that way. The world desperately needs a internet revolt against these massive corporate entities. I plan on making an additional page for my site that has a wealth of resources for like minded people who want to exist and create in the digital world without having to pay for it. I don't necessarily think we need to return to the wild days of the internet, just need to make these corporations understand that digital tyranny doesn't pay. There's always another way to do things and really we don't need what they're selling.
So far it seems to be drawing a lot of younger people, which is probably a good thing although I'm generally alienated from trendy types. From my experience new platforms have a fun initial period where people really push the limits of what it can do and then eventually everything settles into a rhythm and develops its own culture. I hope I can actually make a dent in this with my own content so it doesn't just turn into another echo chamber of self aggrandizing vapid twits with copy paste personalities and no real goals, ambitions or anything of value to contribute to the greater whole. Yes, the cynicism isn't charming but its hard to avoid. I really hope Lurk manages to survive the modern plague of frivolous attention and become a new cornerstone of the free web. I think it can if the right people put in the effort.
The beginning?
audrey
May 17, 2026
What is it that compels a person to fear the end of their lives? The answer to this question has been argued about since basically forever. Logical minds often say it can be attributed to the fear of the unknown, to which we are all reduced to in our basic primal nature. Psychologists might say it can be blamed on the Ego, that we cannot really conceive of a world that exists without us, before or after. That reality outside of our immediate perception can only be abstract to us because we revolve around our internal selves. I'm not a scholar or a real philosopher so most people in this age wouldn't take my perspective seriously. I am ok with this, truly I have grown beyond the need of external validation. I know and am finally comfortable within myself which I consider to be a major accomplishment. What does bother me though is that all this growth, all these experiences, everything I have seen and felt and done will one day mean absolutely nothing. What will be left when I am gone? Will it all have been for naught?
Funnily enough I was watching this silly show the other day, Blark and Son, specifically the episode where Blark visits Stacy for a shrink session funded by little cheesers coupons, and Stacy details for Blark what an "immortality project" is and it put words to what I've been thinking about so much lately. I think most people have something like that they work on when they get the time even if they don't know it. Improving their homes, fixing up their cars, writing, crafting and making art and all sorts of things like that, and of course having kids. I've been considering getting a titanium plate and etching into it the story of my life, my family, my home and stashing it somewhere so it can be looked at by archeologists hundreds of years from now. Something that says "I was here, I have lived, I existed."
I might still do it, we have the means and access to the materials and a cnc machine. Not unlike the Sumerian tablets we could, if we wished, make incorruptible proofs of our world so when we are gone the proofs remain. Still, is it enough? Is it wrong for me to feel like I am entitled to memory in a world I no longer exist in? Probably. I call myself an artist and really I am but its unlikely I will make anything significant enough to survive me by any great measure. (cont.)
Eris, by me late 2010s, Digital Painting
So, all this being said I think you can understand my motivation to write a mediocre blog. The conflict within myself between having no desire to be known and simultaneously wanting to leave my mark on the world isn't without its irony. At first my ambition was to write a series of essays about different subjects regarding art and philosophy and leave my personal life out of it but I realized what a joke that was, both of those things are inherently personal to me. Also I realized that artists people remember weren't the ones that hid away from the world. Van Gough was a introvert and generally alienated from society very much like myself, he is remembered but not so much because he put himself out there, more due to his vast body of work and his groundbreaking techniques. Comparing myself to him is not unlike comparing a plankton to a whale.
I also don't have the ability to just make art on a whim. The muse has to be with me, and I don't say it to be a pretentious twit. If I sit down to make something without FEELING it nothing good comes of it. As you can see with Eris, I had the idea but I had to force myself through it but below, This water buffalo was made with pure spark and I really feel you can see the difference. Its not perfect but it felt amazing to make it, when the muse strikes creation is the easiest thing in the world. Without it art feels futile.
Water Buffalo, by me, 2020s, digital painting.
I hope the spark returns to me soon but in the meantime life happens. Summer is here and I have a ton of stuff to do that requires a great deal of energy to properly procrastinate. Stress is a tide that is always rising higher than I know how to cope with. Responsibilities abound and life has to be lived right now regardless if anyone is going to know I lived it.